Fear Itself…

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The day I posted about my inertia? How it wasn’t some big hairy fear, just inertia that keeps me from my work? Everywhere I looked I found evidence to the contrary. That evening, my last night in my mom’s apartment in Chehalis, I binge watched Criminal Minds, and all three episodes were (of course) about fear. Here are two of the quotes from the wrap-ups:

“Fairy tales do not tell children the dragons exist. Children already know that dragons exist. Fairy tales tell children the dragons can be killed.” ― G.K. Chesterton

“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt

Was it inertia that led me to stay up until midnight…or to use three hours of solitude on tv rather than on my own work…or packing mom’s kitchen?

Just because you refuse to face it, Bethany, doesn’t mean it’s not fear.

 

My Waitress Thing

If you’ve ever been at a restaurant with me, you know why this short film from Hallmark hit all my buttons.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_8kuHtgMV0

Reading List…

trees3One of the things I do lately is drive from my home in Edmonds, north of Seattle, to Olympia, to Chehalis, to Olympia, and home again. One of the things I do when I drive is schlep books around. One of the books I’ve been schlepping around (schlepping? is that right?) is Christina Baldwin’s Life’s Companion.  Here’s a passage I copied out in my own notebook (in it, she discusses the work of John Brantner, a professor at the University of Minnesota):

“Even though we have been told by saints and sages that there is a dark night, that we will lose ourselves in the woods, we may still be shocked and surprised to find ourselves there. It is part of human nature to hope that spirituality will save us from the experience, that we can combine enough luck and faith not to suffer.

“In Brantner’s worldview, not only is this not possible, it’s not desirable. He defined despair as an integral part of human maturity, an avenue of learning that should not be avoided….Despair is such a nearly universal experience among people who have chosen consciousness that you and I would do well to accept it, name it, and prepare ourselves as willingly as possible to submit to the process. ” (93)

Then, from Madeleine L’Engle, this:P1050357

“The world tempts us to draw back, tempts us to believe we will not have to take this test. We are tempted to try to avoid not only our own suffering but also that of our fellow human beings, the suffering of the world, which is part of our own suffering. But if we draw back from it…, [Franz] Kafka reminds us that ‘it may be that this very holding back is the one evil you could have avoided.’

“The artist cannot hold back; it is impossible, because writing, or any other discipline of art, involves participation in suffering, in the ills and the occasional stabbing joys that come from being part of the human drama.” (Walking on Water68-69)

 

Blog tour, continued…

I’m pleased to redirect you to Joannie Stangeland’s blog tour post — Blog Tour 2014: Snapshot — Joannie has a rich and rewarding post for us. It makes me want to go write a poem.