How to Begin

My Creative Nonfiction students are getting ready to turn in their “big, true story” and so, even though they should have done so already, we spent time this week thinking about How to Begin. Among other activities, we watched the first 15 minutes of Wall-E, the 2008 Pixar movie directed by Andrew Stanton. It was fun to talk about how this movie works–without dialogue, without a human character to identify with, without really anything much happening for several minutes–and manages to beautifully engage our attention.

Wall-E begins many years after the last human beings have left earth behind. It begins with the main character, the robot Wall-E, compacting garbage and stacking it into skyscraper like piles. He’s been doing this, we’re given to understand, for 700 years. But there’s a bit more going on–and that’s change. A new character is just about to appear and start the clock ticking on a new thread of interest. Sometimes a story begins when we wake up and become aware of a change. But stories are always about change.

“A story has no beginning or end: arbitrarily one chooses that moment of experience from which to look back or from which to look ahead. I say ‘one chooses’ with the inaccurate pride of a professional writer who–when he has been seriously noted at all–has been praised for his technical ability, but do I in fact of my own will choose that black wet January night on the Common, in 1946, the sight of Henry Miles slanting across the wide river of rain, or did these images choose me?” -Graham Greene, The End of the Affair (p. 1)

How much time do you need?

A recent wise saying on my day-to-day calendar advised that our lives would be better if we would take the advice we give to others.

Reading Carolynne’s response to my last post made me smile. On Sunday she was telling me why she doesn’t have time to write, and as she talked I thought of how she has all the time there is, the same amount as all the rest of  us. We all get 24 hours per day and not one minute more. On Sunday, I refrained from giving Carolynne any advice; I smiled and nodded and looked so understanding, but I was thinking it.

You have to be present with your life. (What choice does one have?) And arguing with reality is a serious time-waster. Early in his first presidential bid, Barack Obama was advised that a later time would offer a better chance for his election. But Obama knew–the only time is now.

My goal right now is to get this novel finished and into the mail to my agent. I can do that by working a little bit every day. I can do that–work a little every day–while being faithful to my family and my students.

Then we’ll see what happens next.

Meanwhile, Monday’s reading with Washington State Poet Laureate Kathleen Flenniken went swimmingly. Kathleen’s new book, Plume, is about Hanford.  It is also,  as she put it and I am still brooding on, the book she was born to write.

No news on the release date for Sparrow. I’m being very, very polite and not pestering Writers & Books, even though they said  “October.” I’ll let you know as soon as I hear anything.

The Books I Am Not Writing

“…my literary career has not even begun yet. The plots for five novellas and two novels are languishing in my head. One of the novels was conceived so long ago that several of the characters have already grown old and out of date even before they had a chance to take form on paper. There is an entire army of people in my head begging to get out and just waiting for my command.”  -Anton Chekhov

This was my main insight while on the retreat, and I’m sorry to have to put it to you so bluntly. Writing for 15 minutes here and there, scribbling in the early mornings before rushing off to my teaching job — these things have kept me alive as a writer, but only just barely. I need more time.

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The Gell Center

I promised to tell you about my retreat. Although I am thankful to be home safely, and I missed my daughters (and, okay, my husband, too), I don’t think I can rave enough about how amazing this trip was for me.

The Gell Center is a rather ordinary-looking house sitting on a 26-acre estate  in the Fingerlakes Wine Region of New York State. Built in 1929 by Dr. and Mrs. Kenneth Gell, it was donated to Writers and Books upon Dr. Gell’s death. Writers and Books have served the bequest well, adding a lodge for larger groups, and two very cute cabins deeper in the woods (no water or electricity, alas).

If I know my audience, however, what YOU want to know is what I did there. I wrote. I got up every morning, very early. I scribbled in a notebook, as is my habit of many years, but I found that there was none of my usual whining about wishing I could be a “real” writer. By the end of the morning’s entry, in fact, I was usually drafting something to be typed into my novel manuscript.

The second step was to open my laptop and read what I had typed the previous day. This was “retyping,” mind you. But, still, there were plenty of changes to absorb. Remember last summer when (I think I shared this with you) I decided a character had to die? Well, for the longest time my manuscript simply sailed on after that chapter, with no significant consequences. I realized, sometime earlier this fall, that that wasn’t going to do. In a novel, everything has consequences. If a character coughs, she has TB. If a knife appears, someone is going to be stabbed.

As I often tell my students, everything in life has consequences, but in the turmoil and 11,000 bits of stimuli every minute, we often don’t pay attention to those consequences.

So I read aloud for a long time–often an hour or more. Then, I pulled out the as yet not retyped, extremely messed-up pages, and began typing. I typed about 5,000 words on an average day. I wrote one new scene, and made many, many changes throughout the manuscript.

I had a few other other things on my mind. It was “the Fingerlakes Wine Region,” after all.  I visited the Imagine Moore winery in Naples and bought a bottle of a white called “Gratitude.” (And I was grateful.) I had purchased groceries on my first day, but on a couple of days I went in search of the perfect cheeseburger. I found Lake Canandaigua and got spectacularly lost, but found my way home again.

I worked on the manuscript in the afternoons and early evenings, but by seven or eight o’clock I wanted other company. So I read books (there are over 1000 books at the Gell House, and of course I brought a suitcase full of them, coals to Newcastle). I watched TV shows on my laptop. At bedtime, without fail, I got out my notebook again and jotted down some additional ideas. I dreamed about my story! (Something I cannot ever remember doing while at home.)

At dawn and dusk there was an interesting rustling in the ceiling above the living room (the one with the amazing picture window) where I usually worked. At first I worried that there were mice or something, but it sounded too heavy. It sounded like a cat. One day this cat (see picture) was sitting on the lawn glaring at me. What do you think?

I’ll have a few additional insights to share–about the writing, not the cat–in my next post.